update i guess

i really need an apartment.. and i also really need a roommate. i also need my social security card, to renew my permit, my license, a car, to pay off bills, enroll in school, and someone to help me do my taxes.
i'm going to new york city soon to visit my aunt so she can show me the school she teaches at. i'm considering going there. i really think getting away from weymouth for a while might help me deal with my life. i'm really starting to think something's wrong with me.
i've also come to the realization that i dont really have anyone i can talk to anymore. i'm so afraid that people are going to betray my trust and so instead of taking that risk i hold everything in and keep it to myself. in the past i have made the mistake of putting alot of trust into people i thought were really good friends and then i guess i learned my lesson and just about every one of them went behind my back and showed me that i was stupid to think it would be ok. i mean, yeah i have a few friends i can vent to and not worry about them spilling every detail.. but i dont know.. just alot of stuff i have to keep to myself now.. and that really sucks.

anyways... jennie and ryan are moving to the cape tomorrow morning. i wish i could just get up and move.. sometimes i wish i could get my own apartment.. living with pat is really not the best thing for us right now. that's another thing i cant talk about cause it'll turn right back around and blow up in my face..

everyyyyythingggg suckkks..... someone help me =(

cold cold cold

meh.
i am so tired. worked today, yahk. 6am-3:30 is not a fun shift. we had to do 03852096724153 markdowns in less than an hour. it was busy all day. i hate rude people. like, i'm SORRY that we ranout of fuckin GIFT BOXES. like fo serious people.. would you like me to pull a gift box out of my ass for you so that you dont have to stop being a lazy ungrateful shitbag and wrapping your own freakin christmas gifts? jesus. people who are reading this and havent ever worked in retail are probably like "hokay heather.. its not that bad relax" but think about it. a 9 and a half hour shift with 90% rude, asshole shitbag customers who are ungrateful and selfish. who act like YOU personally own and operate American Eagle and control what goes on. yahhhp Newz Flash. I dont =)

hmmmkay...after work i took the bus home and then got locked out so i'm all "holy hell i have to pee like its my job" and so i go on a bathroom quest. i go to Bucks Bar and theyre all drunkards and i ask where the bathroom is and i get a collective "merrrrr" so i leave and go to the mini mart and the mans like "no public restroom. try donut king" so i go there and theyre all cheery and happy. ive never been in donut king. its .... quaint? small.. old fashioned. its like a donut bar haha. anyways. they let me use their bathroom and dont even try to guilt me into buyin a donut. which makes me want to buy a donut. but i dont, per lack of fundage. and then i walk back home and im still locked out. only for like 20 minutes tho.

thennnn i remember that yesterday i talked to carlos [ yes yes *gasp* *shock* he decided to end his.. um... 40854th "Im Not Talking To Heather Ever Again" stage and left me a voicemail telling me to call him. ] anyways.. yesterday i talked to him but it was late so he told me to call him tomorrow. which is now today. so i did. and it was weird. it makes me happy tho. i miss that spanyard. bahaha. we basically acted like nothing ever happened. exchanged fun stories. you know, the usual catching up type ish. we decided to just not talk about serious shit cause thats when we fight. and he seems to need a friend. so, Hi My Names Friend Heather =] wutev i dont need to be serious bout that ish right now. let's just be happy and cheery and retahded. kthnx


hmmm.. pats home i think but he didnt come upstairs to say hi. how rude.

i dont feel good... rawr...

ok im done baiii


hahah

red powerade

today was okay. i slept.. aloottttt. i think my sleeping patterns are fucked. and by think, i mean they totally are and it's gettin bad haha
right, so anyways.. i slept til like 1. then i got up and sat on the couch and watched I Love New York. god damnnn that woman is crazy hahah. after thattt umm i just did a whole lotta nothing.. i drew a little bit in the journal i'm making for my mom.. then me, pat, bob, jenna, and steve went to the mall. i picked up my check ($4 hundred somethinggg. not bad not bad) but the bank was closed so i couldnt cash it. then we went to a few other stores and headed out.
we made nicknames for eachother out of boredom:
Me = HeartsAndHeather (i dont know why)
Bob= Bob Boner (for obvious reasons, i mean look at the kid)
Pat= PussCrushin Pat (speaks for itself)
Jenna= JumboDump Jenna (dont ask)
Steve= Serious Steve (cause when the car went all silent and Pat said "poop" he was the only one who didnt laugh)

together we make up the... um i forget.. but regardles.. we lead a pretty sick life. and youre probably jealous. except i dont really know what "you're" i'm referring to cause i dont think anyones reading this but hokay.

anyways.. then we came home and hung out at pat's. he put his bands songs up on their new myspace.. and me bob and steve watched some show on mtv. woo. yeaaahhhh

i'm boring.


*tries to think of new blog topics*

*fails.....*



the end ! <3 bye

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someone take me to new york city.